Sunday, December 20, 2009

The Change

We crawl before we walk. We learn arithmetic before algebra. We must fix ourselves before we can fix others. I learnt this meaning of life through this poem, the writings of an Anglican Bishop:

When I was young and free and my
Imagination had no limits, i dreamed of
changing the world;

As I grew older and wiser I realized the
world would not change.

And I decided to shorten my sights
somewhat and change only my country.
But it seemed immovable.

As I entered my twilight years, in one last
desperate attempt, I sought to change
only my family, those closest to me, but
alas they would have none of it.

And now here I lie on my death bed and
realize 9perhaps for the first time) that if
only i'd changed myself first, then by
example I may have influenced my
family and with their encouragement
and support I may have bettered my
country, and who knows I may have
changed the world.

This is what this poem is all about. Changing form the inside out, starting from "the man in the mirror" (this is taken form Michael Jackson's song).If you want to make a change in your life, the place to begin is with yourself, not with your parents, or your boyfriend, or your lecturer. All changes begins in us, it's inside out, not outside in.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Catherine by David Tao

Catherine...a girl's name, yet it carries a thousand meanings. Is she a long lost friend? Or a love which could never be forgotten? Here i wanna share with you all how beautiful this piece of musical art from David. A songs which reflects on my personal experience, the lyrics touched my heart each time i listened to it. It's one of the best alternative rock song in recent times, with smooth acoustic guitar music in the background.

Catherine

曲:丁世光
词:陶喆 & 娃娃
你有一种变态功力 让我失去理性
我像机器被你游戏 扭曲着情绪
也许你从来不了解 你的爱会让我窒息
我想你最爱的 是自己
Catherine 我不属于你
Catherine 我要我自己
抓得越紧 越抓不住早就破裂的感情
你不明白这个道理 你也不可能反省
只希望你能够了解 为什么我离你远去
我要找回被夺走的信心
Catherine 不能没有你
Catherine 也不能在一起

过去相依如今分离 都是命运而已
有一点痛有点遗憾 更多的叹息
Catherine 我要离开你
Catherine 虽然还爱你

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

暗恋 - 陶喆

Still lonely still lonely

昨晚又再见到你 你还是那么美丽
我紧张到话都不会说 就傻傻看着你
渴望永远这距离 就是和你在一起
醒来发现这一切都只是我的梦境

告诉自己要冷静 却又无法不想你
我的懦弱已经开始让我讨厌我自己
是你对我有戒心 还是我没有自信
可是谁也不能阻止我 我要暗恋你
So lonely

So here I am standing all alone
在某个街头 有个我在这里只为你等候
Here I am waiting just for you
开放我所有 希望你能了解你能够接受
So lonely

今晚渴望再见你 虽然只是在梦想
短暂的甜蜜也胜过了一辈子没有你
就算没快乐结局 就算从此死了心
我要付出我所有诚意 只要能感动你
我愿意

So lonely so here I am standing all alone
在某个街头 有个我在这里只为你等候
Here I am waiting just for you
开放我所有 我要为你怎么做你才接受我 (才接受我)
我喜欢(我喜欢你) 我要你 (我要你) 我爱你

So here I am standing all alone(standing all alone)
在某个街头 有个我在这里只为你等候
So here I am waiting just for you
开放我所有 希望你能了解你能够接受
I'm lonely

故事就说到这里 就算你们再好奇
我想说的都已说完了 其余是秘密
在那某一个街头 会流传某个旋律
那是我在轻轻唱着歌 我多爱你Janine

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Melody

终于明白你以变成回忆
没有言语能够说明当别人问起
谱了一段旋律没有句点
也无法再继续
像埋伏在街头的某种气息
无意间经过把往日笑与泪勾起
忽然心痛的无法再压抑
原来从未忘记
Melody脑海中的旋律转个不停
爱过你 有太多话忘了要告诉你
Melody 无数动人音符在我生命
爱过你 失去你我才知道要珍惜
当时无法为你写的那首歌
都是我永远的遗憾
当爱逝去 如果所有的错重来一次
能否改变结局
终于落下休止符的那首歌
我听着每一个音符流过的回忆
为什么在那么多年以后
还不能说再见
Melody 脑海中的旋律如此熟悉
爱过你 在我心里只能轻轻叹息
Melody 无数动人音符在我生命
爱过你 失去你我才知道要珍惜
Melody oh Melody
我永远不能忘记
你是多么的美丽
让这音乐一直不停响起
Melody oh Melody
我舍不得去忘记
我们快乐的过去
请别让我从这梦境清醒
Melody 脑海中的旋律如此熟悉
爱着你 求你听我唱完这一段旋律
请不要离去
Melody 你是在我脑海不停的旋律
爱过你 我的心里只能无言叹息
Melody 无数动人音符在生命里
爱过你 失去后我才知道要珍惜你

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Y Do All Good Things Come to An End?

Wednesday. the time, 8.30 a.m. I woke up from my dreamland to the real world by my stupid alarm clock. As usual, after switching off my alarm,I crawled back to my bed to sleep(that's what I always do:)). I thought it was still holiday, then after a while only I realise today I will be heading back to my uni. It's the last day of my "sudden midsem break". Oh man, one week hols is just like a day off. I have to start to get ready everything before my senior come to pick me up at 1 p.m. Basically, I have packed all the stuffs I need to take back. Just some little things to settle. Oh ya, I have to meet dad at 10 a.m at his school to take my certified certs. Immediately i "jump" of my bed and do my morning chores. The time is 9.05 a.m. I went to take my breakfast at a nearby mamak(which in my opinion the roti canai is one of the best i've ever taste) and drove to my dad's school. After that, I went to post office to buy setem. Wow, the office was packed with ppl. Damn it, i was late. Looked like i was gonna be stucked there for quite a long time.But as I look around, then only I realised how foolish I am. I actually took a number just to buy setem! As u all know, when u go into a bank or post office, u have to take number and wait for ur turn to go to the counter. BUT U DUN HAVE TO DO THAT WHEN U BUY SETEM!!! I realised this only after i read the instructions at the counter. And before this i have waited for bout 20 minutes. Feeling like punching myself(of cos i didn't, ppl will think i'm crazy),i rushed to lineup at the counter for buying setem.

After that, i went back home to get ready to go back to the "prison", that is USM. Not feeling to packing anymore, I on my com and started downloading some music chords to play. Kinda like the song"With All I AM" and "SHout to the Lord" from Hillsongs, so i decided to download them and learn to play using piano. I spent the last one hour at home before i left playing these 2 songs over and over again. Then about 1 pm, i stopped, brought all my bags downstairs and waited for my senior's arrival. Dad came back not long later. My senior arrived around 1.40 p.m and that's the end of my hols. Dunno when will i come back home again, most probably during Raya hols, which is 2 months away. After all, this midsem break is really too sudden as i couldn't meet all my frens from other uni(most of their uni didn't close down). Nvm, i still got to spend time with my family. So, bye Muar, see u again in September.:) Y do all good things come to an end?

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Sudden Midsem Break

On a Wednesday morning, my alarm woke me up at 7.00 am. As usual i didn't wake up immediately instead i continue to lie on bed,wanna enjoy my sleep somemore. Deep in my mind i know that i have boring Geomatic Engineering class at 8 a.m. But...who cares? Nothing matters more than my precious sleep. Somehow, half awake, i heard noises outside. Quite CLEAR noises. SO clear that i was forced to wake up unwillingly. Than my roommate came into the room and said that, "hey James, wake up!! Our uni will close down starting today!" My mind suddenly jumped from my dreamland right into reality. "What?" i replied him. "U sure ma?",i was so shock and stunned,cos before this i heard there were bout 4 ppl in my uni quarantined because suspicious of having H1N1 flu.Since then we were speculating that USM Engineering campus will close down temporally, like several other unis, including UPM, UUM,....But i didn't expect this speculation will come true, and so fast?! Wow, dear God, u really did things in a wierd way!

After doing my usual morning cores( that is bath and brush teeth la), i rushed down to cafe to do medical checkup, as this was compulsory for everybody who wanted to leave the campus. As i went down, as expected, the cafe was crowded with people.Oh man, wtf! Looked like its gonna be a long day. Feeling disappointed, i went to line up with the rest of the crowd.At the same time, i was thinking of how to go back to Muar, How to buy bus ticket? What to do during this one week holiday? These things kept spinning in my mind. After all, i didn't like unplanned hols, it will be so boring!! Oh man, imagine staying at home,doing nothing but eat, sleep and play computer games the whole week? I thought of bringing some books back to study, but come on, just ask anyone from any uni in Malaysia, is it possible to study at home? It will be even harder than to score A in Geology(if u know wat i mean, USM ppl!!:))

During the queue for the medical, i decided the final plan to go back Muar, which was also the safest and fastest way, that was follow senior's car! After i called the senior, he agreed to fetch me back. Luckily man! Praise God! After an hour long wait, i finally finished my medical. So with lightning speed(kononnyala, its just a metaphor k? DON'T take it for REAL),i rushed up up to my room to pack my stuff, hoping to go down in time so that my senior wouldn't have to wait for me. After finished packing, and chit-chating with my roommates a while(they seemed not intend to go back), i went down to cafe, this time wearing a mask(ppl tend to look at me in a wierd manner), armed with my laptop and my backpack(I didn't plan to bring too many stuffs back, y? Simply i was afraid i couldn't remember to bring back). Aroun 10 mins later, my senior finally arrived, and there goes my "out of sudden" midsem break, as we headed back to Muar. I must admit I kinda miss home too. :) May it be a boring holiday, that moment i just wanna go home to see my family and enjoy the comfort of home, "home sweet home"! Now i know how meaningful this phrase is! And so, enjoy your hols!

Monday, July 13, 2009

Rose

Been obsessed with this song lately. Its the opening theme song for the poppular anime, "Nana".

Rose

When I was darkness at that time
With trembling lips in a corner of my room, I cry
The more I struggle, the more this wound pierces me
A broken promise hurt me

Nobody can save me
There’s only one God
my love seems to stop and split me

I need your love
I’m a broken rose
The scattering sadness, your song
my lonely life that has no whereabouts

I need your love
I’m a broken rose
Oh baby, help me from frozen pain
With your smile, your eyes, and sing me, just for me

I wanna need your love…
I’m a broken rose
I wanna need your love…

When you were with me at that time
I chased your shadow and ran barefooted, stop me
The more I close it up, the more complicated this love grows
kiss me slowly and tenderly

Nobody can save me
Like a frozen rose
I want to sleep tenderly, my tears

I need your love
I’m a broken rose
The sadness that withers and falls, my soul
the lonely little girl who crumbles

I need your love
I’m a broken rose
Oh baby, help me from frozen pain
With your smile, your eyes, and sing me, just for me

I wanna need your love…
I’m a broken rose
I wanna need your love…

I need your love
I’m a broken rose
The scattering sadness, your song
my lonely life that has no whereabouts

I need your love
I’m a broken rose
Oh baby, help me from frozen pain
With your smile, your eyes, and sing me, just for me

I wanna need your love…
I was a broken rose
I wanna need your love…